New Building!

So, we Foundation year students finally have our new building! Yay, it's so much nicer. Lectures are still held in the main University campus, but tutorial classes are at this new building. It looks really corporate... business-like...hahaha. Not boring though. I think it looks serious and modern but at the same time, strangely interesting too. Hmm, standing at the hallway, it reminded me of a scene from Resident Evil. Hahaha, the way the doors are arranged and the atmosphere, it's as if some kind of nasty experiment was being carried out. LOL. Also, many doors are made in such a way that it blends into the wall. That's damn cool. I can walk pass one without even knowing that it's there.
Oh, did I mention that half of the classes are located in the basement? Yeah, that's so weird. Like, even when it's really noisy in the hallway because the building faces the main road, it's awfully quiet in the classrooms.
Apparently, there are some levels that can only be accessed through the elevator. Hmmm, curious curious. LOL, will find out more about it soon. :)

Such is life~

Ohhhhh, had my non-assessable maths test today. I'm really disappointed with myself. What happened was, I got stuck at a question on construction! LOL. I could do the question, yeah. The thing was, the first time I constructed the diagram, it went right through the question. So I had to erase and start over. This time, I had some problems with the compass, hahahha. Don't know why, but it kept moving about!!! After 2-3 attempts, I finally got it right. Stupid!~ Hahahahha.
Since I was using a pencil for that question, I kept using it for the next 3 questions. Hhahaha, so dumb of me! Yeah, wasted my time, again, to rewrite the workings and the answers. In the end I had to rush through the rest of the test. Guaranteed careless mistakes, hahahahha.
Then, tehre's another incident. After class, I went to the teller to pay my rent. There were two attendants behind the counter, attening to one customer each. Only one old lady was in the waiting line. I stood behind her, but she made way for me to go first. Also, I noticed that she was talking to a guy in front of her. So I assumed that they were together and she let me pass because she wasn't in the line. Haha, little did I know that she let me pass as she thought that I was in a rush. I didn't even thank her! -_-"
So yeah, such is a day for me. Hahahha... Oh well, this coming weekend=work and no play. I'm clearing all the work, making way for my design! I'm designing a park, guys! A public park. So, if anyone has any interesting ideas, please please share!~
Sweet, I just discovered another use for this blog!

Letter of Complaint!!!!!!!!!!

Oh man, I wanna launch a complaint! Hahaha... I picked up another one of my reserved books just earlier in the evening. Guess what? I can have it only for 3 days...again! Coz it's in such a high demand! Good for, weekends don't count! Hahaha, I get to give it back next Monday... but still... :(
Sigh, tonight will be another sleepless one. This book has much more info compared to the previous one which contained more pictures...! Looking on the bright side, though, both are quite to the point. The first gave me a list of designers in Droog, this gives me it's progression and development over time. Well, mostly anyway. Yeah, both are the parts of the requirements for the presentation. Weeee!~~~~~~~
Got to start my note-taking marathon now. Thanin/Adrian/Timmy, out! LOL

Oh damn it. I think I'm about to rot, die AND decompose! Hahaha, so much work! Last night I worked with a book on "Droog Design" I borrowed from the library. I was allowed to have it for only three days!~ Last night was the only time I could read through it. Glued myself to my desk for six hours jotting down notes! Thanks to Keith, too, or else I would have done it within five! Hahah, just kidding! Your non-sense was great fun.
Anyway, since my friend is going to the COFA library today, I passed that book to him so he could help me return it. The stupid thing is just now, when I checked my email, I was told that another one of my reserved books is now available in COFA! I went, "What the hell???". Sigh, guess I'll go there in the morning before class. Well, technically I'm skipping maths lecture so I can go there at 1pm, hahahaha.
Waaahhhh, so busy these days! Good things that I'm really close to completing my English and Australian Studies' presentations, or else I'd be dead now. My design presentation is a real killer!!~~ There is a huge chunks of requirements we have to meet. Summary handouts, presentation talk, images for analysis and discussion, and a poster showing the philosophy of the design group/style. Stupid woman, why did she have to ask for so much information? Last but not least, my new Design project.... Yesterday I bought some materials to start it. Didn't get the chance to, though. Sigh, gonna do it tonight. It's really hard, I don't have any idea how to begin. But then, that's how it was for the previous project, too. Hahahhaa, so I guess HOPE history will repeat itself!

Perfect !~

Went on a dumb, little adventure today. Was supposed to attend English tutorial today, but I woke up late. So...slept more! Hahha, when I was finally out of bed, I went to the library instead. Wanted to get a book that I reserved. However, I took the wrong bus. Hahaha, ended up in the city...a place I'm not familiar with at all! Hahhaa. Tried to find my way out because I know that I can get to the library on foot from there! Walked aimlessly for about 20-30 minutes. Hahaha. Luckily, when I was walking pass a bus stop, I saw a bus that goes to Oxford St. Sweet, so I decided to hop on. As it turned out, I was right. BUT, the destination was only about 3-4 stops away from where I boarded the bus. Hahaha, wasted my precious bus ticket!
Anyway, finally got a book to get me going with my project. I can only hold on to it until this Thursday though, which is kinda bad coz that means I really really have to skim through it. Haiz~
Also, missing the tutorial was really not a good idea. The teacher gave our new timetable and a map for our new school building! Hmmm, I'll only get mine this coming Thursday! Anyway only four people went for the tutorial, haha. Still it made me so guilty, hahaa. That's why I went to the Maths lecture in the afternoon to make up for it. Honestly, I have not been to this lecture for ages. It's way too boring!
Oh, we recieved our grades for the first design project too. I got a freaking A! Haahhaa, i'm so very surprised! Totally didn't see that coming! Hahha, my work was chosen for display in the students' exhibition, too! YAY! Though, I thought something was wrong. I mean, many others were much nicer than mine. Somehow, mine was the only one out of three that was chosen... :S
But well, it's time to concentrate on my new design project! The notorious, infamous Landscape! Hahaha, now I kinda understand why it has such a reputation. This is going to be such a tedious job. We only have four weeks for it too. T__________T

Heart-breaking Decision!~

Oh man, my com crashed half-way through a moment ago when I was posting an entry.
Anyway, I was at the travel agency today. The cheapest direct flight to S'pore is at $1027! Whoa!!! That's much more expensive than what I expected. Though, I really want to go and nothing can stop me! Hahaha, guess I'll really have to spend much less on anything from today onwards for a period of 3-4 months! Haha
Oh, everything is looking brighter these days, too. I'm so glad. Later tonight I'm going to watch Star Wars with my brother and his friends. Not that I'm a fan of the saga, but just think it's a good idea to get out. It's Friday night!
Tomorrow I'll be doing my group work with my friends. We'll be going about doing interviews! Haha, that will be interesting. ^___^
Work-wise I'm doing well, I think. I've prepared my English presentation which is due in 3 weeks! Hahaha, so relieved now! Also, I'm more than half way done with my Australian Studies presentation which is due in two weeks. For my Design group presentation, we are going at quite a slow pace. Though we are progressing constantly. Shouldn't be a problem as it's due in mid-June. When I'm done with my Australian Studies', then I'd go all out with that piece. Oh, we are getting our comments on the 1st design project next Monday. I'm quite excited as to what the teacher's going to say. WE'll get our 2nd project, too. I dare say, "Bring it on!"
Oh, from this week onwards I'll be doing constant revision for the upcoming exams in July. Don't want to be complacent! Hahaha, wanna make sure that I score! Good for the morale, right?!?!?!?

Oh my gosh! I recieved the greatest piece of news today. Ok, firstly... Danny, how long are you going to be in S'pore? As in, until when? Coz, I just found out that I have a holiday from 19-31 of July!!!!~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Tell me asap, alright? Wow, and I thought I wasn't going to get a holioday!

Greatest apology

Cibil: "To let us develop as a person, God granted

many tests and obstacles to the people."

Felin: "If that's true, then I think God is really

dumb to have thought of such silly methods."

Cibil: "Maybe yes, or no. God is smart but we are stupid.

God is smart to grant such difficult tests

together with answers. People, however, are too stupid

to only see the tests alone. That's why we feel

that there is no way out."

From: The Thief of Baramos

Guys, really sorry for making you so worried. It was really stupid to have done what I did. It was really an act out of impulse. Now, though, you all showed me that there'll never be a day when I wake up and be totally alone.

Out of my mind.

I freaked myself out just now. Ok, so I started drinking. Not as bad as it sounds, but since yesterday I drowned a bottle each day. No, it's not a lame fashion statement. It just feels better with the boost.
Though just now, I was taking a shower. I sat on the floor and just let the water run onto my head. Then a thought crossed my mind. What if I could drown myself in the running water and just sleep forever? What happened then was I, unconciously, began holding my breath in the running water. Took me a while to realise and I jumped out of the shower when I did. Gosh, what's going on?
I'm scaring the shit out of myself with the things I do these days. I talk to myself and laugh at my own thoughts. I was so close to cutting myself while working with a pen knife for my design project.
Am I becoming a freak now? Or just over-reacting?
Fuck it all.

My routine

I'm beginning to hate Fridays.
They say a smile can make you feel better. So laugh more, smile more. Even when you're sad, smile. You are bound to make everything better. I don't know. I just prefer to sulk. Play a song. Listen to it over and over again. Sing along until I can't anymore. Then begin to cry until I exhaust myself. Go to sleep after that and wake up feeling incredibly stupid at myself. That seems to be what I do on Friday, though.
Why do we have to be a social animal? Anyway, I forgot what I wanted to say.

Back, finally

Been a while since my last post. I have quite aload of assignments to complete from now until next month. :(
Next Monday I have to hand in my first design assessable project. It's almost done now and I should be able to finish it by tomorrow. Yay! Have this Computer studies' Photoshop work due at the end of this month too. That should not be much of a problem either.
On the 2nd of June, though, I have my Australian Studies presentation and following closely is my English Summary presentation on the 6th. After that is the killer one. My design presentation on the 14th of June. That is really scary. I really need to do a lot of research and work on that piece. Just today, I was given another english assignment which is due on the 30th of June. Now this is an interesting one. Every week we have to produce a certain amount of work for the teacher to check. For example, next week we have to produce the background information of the topic and the week after the rationale and the scope is due. What more is that, we can choose whatever topic we like. My group is doing a topic on homosexuality :S, chosen by one girl in our group of three. Since this is an interview-based project, meaning we have to gather information mostly from interviewing the locals, I can't imagine us asking around about such a topic. Oh well, it's a totally fresh topic anyway.
We also got a new timetable today. It's only temporary, which is really good coz I don't really like it. Even though on Thursday my first class starts at as late as 11am, generally I have to stay in school longer as there are more breaks between lessons. Actually, now that I look at it again, it's not so bad. Hahahaha, but it's going to change again when we move to the new building at the end of the month!

The last one(for now)!

And more!

More!

A picture based on "The Thief of Baramos". A really really cool novel!~~~~~~~~~~~
Been wanting to do revision since dinner, but the mood never came. Can't really say what I've been doing all this while either for I'm not sure myself. Wanted to blog but words aren't flowing like they should. So I just decided to put up these pictures to pass the time. At least somethig's being done.

Fly

It's Friday afternoon. How fast the week went by. Everyone's happy to get the weekend break. I just got home about half an hour ago. Did what I always do these days, poured all my emotions out.
Really been going back to my earlier posts often lately. It was so nice reading them, almost magical. I don't know but, when I read them I could almost imagine myself in my room back in S'pore. I started reading from the very first post and couldn't stop. It's like going through everything all over again. Felt everything all over again, too.
What I found out was, there's this transition period. Ever since I left S'pore, my blog became really dull like what you guys said. Up to this point, it's still so dead to me. Personally, I didn't feel anything towards the more recent posts at all. Just another day that goes by. While reading the old posts I was actually laughing and crying along. It's weird but true. So full of meaning to me. Now, though, I don't even know what I'm writing about anymore. I don't feel the connection at all.
I really don't want this blog to die. I want to keep using it for much longer. Think I just need a reason to do so. Stupid thoughts again. That's exactly what this blog has become, full of shit thoughts. I'd rather be like before, feel hurt and happiness. Had a blog so full of feelings and emotions. Not like now, it's so empty.

Reality check

It's a damn cold night

Trying to figure out this life

Won't you take me by the hand

Take me somewhere new?

Had a rub with reality today. Tonight the campus has this "Heaven & Hell" party. Heard it's supposed to be a really big event that takes place every year. It sounds so cool, seriously. When I first heard of it I got this idea that I wanted to go there. The next thought was, with who? So strange... , but seriously the question was a real turn off. What's the point of going to a party alone, right?

It's been more than a month since I got here. I haven't been going out to any of the parties at all. It's times like these that I missed you all soooooo much. If only you guys were here, right? I mean, my friends from China from the same class started their course a few months earlier than me. They have their clique of HK&Chinese friends that they go out with after school.

Everything probably started during English lesson today. I was so tired and was yawning in class. My teacher saw, she's a really nice teacher by the way, and was making a joke like, "Oh, someone's been partying too hard last night." My friend continued with, "No, he's avery good boy. He always stay at home to do his homework."

I laughed at the comment. It was freakingly true, though. I've never been going out that often at all. Always stay at home and do my homework coz there's nothing else. What a coincident, right? After the realisation from the "party-news incident", there's this exchange of comments....

Not wanting to be a party animal or anything like that. Just something more than this. Kept thinking about the times when we hang out until late at night only to catch the last bus home, and all the BS.

I don't know how it's going to be like in the near future. But everyday, when the school's over and I walk home on my own, I feel like jumping out to the road.

50 things to do before you die~~~

There's a posters sale going on in the campus today. Looked around the place after my class. It's pretty interesting, though expensive. $10 per poster... gosh. Anyway tomorrow's the last day and I plan to go back there again. It was pretty crowded today and I didn't see everything. Although there's one poster, if you remember, showing a scene from Shrek 2 where the Puss in Boots was doing his teary eyed look. Awwww~~~~
What can I say. I've been missing lessons this week. I missed a Maths lecture on Monday. I was too tired and lazy to go actually. Yesterday, however, it was really stupid of me. I was supposed to have a lecture at 10 in the morning. I set the alarm at 9. It turned out that it was actually set at 9 pm, instead of am! Yeah, I barely made it for the second lesson.
My body clock is quite screwed up, too. For the passed nights I've been going to bed at 4-5am. It's really horrible. More and more work is coming my way. I have three presentaions on my hand right now. Although they are all due in June, they are not exactly light tasks. Well, maybe except for english, which requires me to do a summary of an article and not research like the other two.
Oh, I picked up the campus weekly magazine today. There's a column called "50 things to do before you graduate, get old and die". It's really cool and interesting and I just wanna share some of them. There are things like "Leave a lecture to go to a bathroom and never come back", "Punch someone you hate", "Travel and get lost in another country", "Scream as loud as you can for as long as you can", "Catch a leaf before it hits the ground", "Steal a street sign with your name on it", "Re-unite with childhood friends, get drunk and disorderly with each other and relive good times", "Write a memoir of your own life. You'd be amazed at how screwed up yet very interesting your life had actually been", "Laugh till your insides have been turned inside out and cry so much you have no more water left in your body", "Hug people the moment you're compelled to. If it shocks the shit out of them so be it.", "Appreciate your life. Sit down and pick out all the wonderful things that are happening to you. Be grateful and smile.", "Hang out with a friend watching DVDs, overcome the point of tiredness and stay up talking about anything and everything and finally pass out as the sun comes up.", "Write a song or a poem to relive all that anguish.", and lastly "Hang out with your mother and really get to know her. Be silly with her and remind yourself that your belly buttons were once connected."
Ok, so those are the ones that are really really nice. Though there are still many more. Wow, I got so carried away that I didn't realise how much I typed.

Malibu~~~

Hey... I wasn't feeling very well all day. Last night I was walking in the rain and it was freezing. I was wearing a pair of shorts, too. -_-"
Anyway, I missed Maths lecture today. Was too tired to go. Worse is I realised, during the desing studio, that my design work is on a VERY wrong track. Oh damn it, I'm doing it all over again. Anyway, it wasn't very nice...so maybe it's for the better!
Oh, my friends just left the place too. Ana and Ariel, they came to watch TV at 9.30. It turned out, though, that there was a change in the schedule. So we ended up talking for hours. Anyway, they brought a bottle of Malibu and a few can of cokes along. It was really nice. We were talking about pubs or something like that, but they suddenly asked me if I'm 18. So I said "Since yesterday!". That was it... They made me down a glass of Malibu and coke in one short. Phew, I still feel the gas~~~~
Wanted to get more rest today, but ended chit chatting. Yeah, I slept for two hours earlier on. Drinking was nowhere in the plan though, lol. I'll be out drinking again tomorrow, too. So it's going to be 3 days straight of alcohol. :S

B'Day

Hey, I'm 18 now....~_~ Will take a while for me to get use to that. I don't know why, but to me 18 is like bench mark between young adults and not-so-young adults. Haha... Oh well, no one can be young and childish forever huh? Also, a big THANK YOU to everyone for all the wishes!
So I got a new computer today! Yippee! Finally I got rid of the junk I used as a computer for the passed years. For good, too. Hahaha~~~
Anyway I just got home. Went for dinner and drink with my brother and his friend. Oh, actually I wanted to change the layout of this blog. Oh well, another time. It takes up too much time and I haven't found the one that I really like yet. When I think about this, I haven't found any that is nicer than this one!
I WANNA BE DIFFERENT, I WANNA STAND OUT, I WANNA BE ME!